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It's been awhile. A long while.

And a lot of things have happened in the last month or two. 

Some parts really great and another part that I wish I could put in the VCR, rewind back to before it happened and throw that piece of film away.

This has been one of the hardest months of my life. 

And I haven't really known how to write about it, that is why it has taken me so long.

I've just been in denial, and pushing it to the back of my mind, and that has been my way of handling it.

November 8, I received the worst news I ever could have imagined receiving and hope to never get a call like that that again. ever.

Gosh, I don't even know what to say about this to give what Trevor meant to me in my life the justice it deserves.

He was truly one of my very best friends. We have hung out together since the end of elementary me and the two sets of twins, but since high school and the years before his mission we got really close.
We could talk about anything and everything together. And we usually did sitting out on my front porch, well after our curfews.

He was such an amazing person, with the most clever and hilarious sense of humor.

and i'm going to miss it so much.

I am so proud of his and Scott's examples to go and serve our Lord for 2 years.
Writing Trev on his mission, I could tell there was a change in him, he loved being out in Texas and spreading the gospel to those in need of a little hope. He was there hope, and now is all of ours.