goodbye

so my life has been one big stress monsoon the last few weeks, and its not clearing up anytime soon.

I think last week was one of the hardest weeks I have had in a really long time.

School this semester has been really tough on me. I don't know why.

I don't know if it is the combination of classes I am in and being newly married which is a pretty big change and just trying to fit life, school, work, church, and my family all together. It really might just kill me.

So last week I was dealing with all of this, but the hardest part was saying goodbye to Lucy.

This is my dog Lucy on the day we got her.

We became best friends from that day forward. I am the youngest in my family by a few 7 years, so growing up I was alone a lot of the time because my siblings were always away in college, but Lucy was always there for me everyday when I got home from school, seriously she was my best friend.

We had to put her down a week ago, and I can't believe how hard it has been on me...last weekend when I went home there was such an empty feeling not having her there anymore...and I know its going to take awhile to get over, but I am so grateful that she lived for as long as she did. I guess according to the Vet 14 years is a really long time for a Golden Retriever to live, i'm really glad she stayed around for so long.

I love you girl, and am going to miss you more than you will ever know. Thanks for a wonderful 13 years.

All Hallows Eve

Well I know its almost over. 

But I just thought I would let the world know we are still alive, its been awhile since I have been on here. I will update you soon. I hope.

Anyways, we wish you all a wonderfully spooky and Happy Halloween...at least whats left of it.

Love, 

Kissin Kate Barlow

and her Indian captive

this makes me so excited I have already looked at it probably 17 times

You guys!

I am so so so so so excited to announce...

our wedding was featured on Greenapple's Photography Blog!!

This is probably only one of my biggest wishes and dreams ever!

It is so cute, I love the way Lindsey set it up and posted about our DIY wedding.

If you haven't realized yet I literally am in love with weddings. And it is so fun mine was posted because I could literally look at wedding blogs all day long, and now mine is one of those that people might look at! Oh my gosh this has been a fantastic day so far, and its only noon.

Go here. Its so fun.

We are so glad we picked Lindsey to do our photos, she did such a fantastic job!

the music video is kind of silly.

But I was sitting here with my sweater on, heater going, and the autumn sunset candle lit and this song came up on pandora. 

It made me very happy. 

I love the fall.

And in lieu of this fall loving happening right now, I think  i'm going to go make some zucchini bread.

rain rain don't go away

You know when its dark, rainy, and cold outside and you are laying in your warm bed and you just keep wishing time will just stop so you can stay in under your warm blankets all day long and just listen to the rain, and not have to face any of the days problems or commotion?

Well. This sadly did not come true for me this morning.

I got up, got ready for my 9:00 class. Headed out in the rain to school. And as I was crossing the street to the art building another photography student that wasn't headed to the same class I was asked me if I was going to Studio. I said yes. She then said, oh, I got a text even though I'm not in that class that your class was cancelled.

Of course everyone who isn't even in the class heard my class was cancelled, but me. So I could have stayed in bed all morning under my warm blankets and listened to the rain.....so why did I not go home after I heard and hop in bed? oh, because today is the first day i forgot my house key so I am locked out.

Oh brother, life is too funny.

Homecoming 2011 USU Style

It was Homecoming weekend already two weekends ago. Time is flying. 

And we had a grand old time. All of the alumni from the Hillam family came up to Logan to enjoy the good ol festivites. Em and Trav and the girls even came and slept over at our house Friday night, it was a lot of fun...and our first time having people stay at our house!

This was my last year to be in the parade with the Ambassadors so everyone came out to watch...and get lots of candy.

All of the Aggie Alumni in our Fam.

 I just really like this boy.

It was a great weekend.

sometimes i really hate school.

Life and me are not doing so hot right now.

I feel like the list of things to do is never ending, and my motivation to do them is about 0.

School is beating me up this semester, and I have a feeling next semester will be exactly the same.

I never get to be home with Kev, and he has been so supportive and positive with me being up at the school til all hours of the night. He usually even surprises me with dinner or crepes when I get home.

...and i don't deserve it because I have been an ornery unhappy person the last few weeks. sometimes I just want to be 10 years old again. Life was so easy back then. growing up is hard, and sometimes almost everyday all day I could burst into tears at any second.

so now i'm going up to school to work on my never ending homework. see you maybe never again.